Hello beautiful friend.
Today I send you the big beautiful purple magnolia petal that fell from its bloom and brightened up the dirty sidewalk.
I send you the moon I couldn’t see last night because of the heavy clouds.
I send you the siren that blared in the background, that one time I was listening to her playing accordion on the street.
Today’s audio LoveGram is about finding the color and beauty in what is, even when we kind of wish for something else.
(To listen to the audio, just click over to this page, scroll down, and hit “play” on the audio player.)
There’s an unusual element in today’s audio. In it, I read you something I wrote earlier this week.
I’d been grappling with some old stuff that has to do with “not enough.”
Do you know this place?
[I hear a knock on the door. I open it. “Oh.” My head drops. My shoulders slump. “It’s you again.”]
Luckily, during a morning with Laurie Wagner’s Wild Writing video prompt, I heard her say a line that had nothing to do with the actual prompt. But I knew immediately it was my prompt.
Laurie said, “This morning I am not feeling fierce or on fire.”
I set my timer for 15 minutes, set my fingers on the keyboard, and there I went. What came out was a mysterious medicine, sent straight from the Great-What-Else.
It’s amazing how something we need to know can come through when we least expect it, right?
You can listen to the whole thing in today’s audio, but here’s a sampling:
- I am not the pinstriped suit. I am those pink doc martens, with furry pink coat.
- I am not the bass. I am the ukulele.
- I am not the “It girl,” not the headline, not the trophy, not the big gold cube in Central Park. I am the last blue gumball in the supermarket machine by the automatic doors. I am the crumbled slip of paper you notice stuck to your shoe. The one that says, yes.
If you’ve ever grappled with that feeling of “not enough” or “not worthy,” or any of the myriad others ways ole Squawky Polly brain tries to make us feel wobbly and uncertain, than I hope my audio today might bring you the knowledge that you are not alone.
I also hope it might bring you an antidote.
Because, you know what? “Not enough” is a monkey mind myth. “Not enough” is a lie. “Not enough” is a distraction from all the goodness, love, kindness, generosity, and willingness that you are.
How do I know this?
Because you are here.
You are someone who is always caring about your life and caring about others.
You are someone who values relationships, truth, and beauty.
You, my friend, are a blooming flower.
I see you.
I see your beautiful heart.
And, as always, I’m grateful to you for being by my side. As Ram Dass says so perfectly, “We are all just walking each other home” — through this pandemic and way beyond to a beautiful new future!
Seek celebration — even in dark corners,
Photo credit, big gold cube: Bild