Hey there, beautiful friend!
Today I send you an Olympic-sized mineral water pool, heated by geysers.
I send you a multi-colored knit hat your best friend sent you as a surprise.
I send you a café, warm and cozy, with a wooden table in the corner, where someone you love is sipping her tea.
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Welcome to your Sunday audio LoveGram.
In today’s LoveGram, we are continuing our conversation about belonging and about being ourselves — and about how the two fit together like yin and yang.
Today, you’ll hear in my audio that I started talking and my science teacher from back in the late 1970’s decided to join our conversation. He had some big things to say back then and I’m glad he popped by to share ‘em with you!
(Er, he didn’t really join in. Not like an actual special guest. He just popped into my head and nudged me to tell you a story!)
I hope you are well. I hope you will get cozy somewhere as you listen.
I hope you will curl up under the covers if you are feeling kinda sad or lost.
I hope you know that you are not alone.
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You probably have heard my story before about how I spent the first few decades of my life feeling out of place. I always felt like the wrong person. Like what I did and said was wrong. Like who I was was wrong!
That feeling of not belonging got so intense and so painful that for a couple years of my life, all I could think about was how to get off the planet.
I believed that I had been a mistake. That something went wrong in the Universe and I shouldn’t have been born because all those voices in my head were constantly torturing me.
What I didn’t realize, until many years later, is that it wasn’t ME that was wrong. It was those voices.
Thankfully, I had been led to my spiritual teacher, Cheri Huber, whose books and practices led me home to compassion and love — for myself and my life.
I still remember as if it were yesterday when I walked into my very first meditation class. It felt like an iron wall was closing in around me, ready to crush me.
There was one in-breath and a different kind of voice in my head spoke to me. This one said, “I don’t want to kill myself right now.”
That moment was like a pinprick of light in the heavy iron wall.
And we all know that one moment of light in the darkness can change everything.
That moment was everything for me.
I saw that nothing was solid like iron. That light could always come in through the tiniest of cracks.
Fast forward thirty years later.
My life has been dedicated to seeking and creating pinpricks of light — moments of okay-ness, moments of joy, moments of care or love.
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What I most want to share with people is that practice of moment by moment finding peace and sparkle.
Because trying to be “HAPPY” is such a tall order. To me, it feels daunting.
However, creating a moment of goodness for myself or someone else? That is always possible.
Any you know what?
In that moment of focusing on creating whatever brand of sparkle or light speaks to me, in that moment of NOT trying to be the right person or do the right thing or to fit in, I am giving myself permission to be ALIVE and to BELONG.
When we belong to ourselves and our lives, even in the tiniest of moments, it changes everything.
Listen to today’s audio LoveGram where I talk more about this and invite YOU to try this on for yourself.
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I know you.
I see your beautiful heart.
I know you want to be comfortable in your own skin and to appreciate yourself as much as you do others.
I applaud you for being here and for wanting to create more kindness and joy in your life and for others.
You are intentional.
You are courageous.
You are willing to step out of the same-ole, same-ole and try something new. You are open to creating just one magical sparkly moment.
Aren’t you?
Even if you are blue? Especially then?!
I can’t wait to hear all about it! Email me and share your tiny pinprick of light today. What was it?
Seek celebration — even in dark corners,
xo Sherry